This year has been tough. I've gotten to the point a few times when I knew I couldn't take anymore disappointment or hurt, and then something would happen to prove me wrong.
My best friend, who was like a sister to me, ended our relationship abruptly without even an attempt to repair it- as though we barely knew each other. Not only did I lose a friendship that at one time I thought was infallible, I lost a family too. Sometimes I miss her, but it's hard to forgive someone who is willing to throw away 14 years of friendship so readily. I'm still working on forgiving.
I moved away to L.A. thinking I would be there forever. It turns out the things I thought I wanted weren't as important to me in reality. I had to let go of the notions that I had believed my entire life. I had to make a choice for my happiness, but it was a choice I never thought was a question. It rocked my world.
My grandfather passed away a couple weeks ago. It's all a part of life, and thank God he had a full life. But I'll miss him, and I know it's hard on my grandmother to be alone after 60 years of marriage.
...And life goes on.
